Two Years Old. My Mommy Woe Is Me
Sayle is turning two TODAY. Two as in two years old. Two as in every time I think about it, I just want to cry. Two as in where the heck did those two years go??
How did you cope with your child turning two? Did you feel that time past by in the blink of an eye?
This feels like it was just yesterday
I’ve seriously been having a difficult time with this milestone since the first of March and as the 25th of March has approached, my heart has become heavier. I’ve found myself saying things like; “This time two years ago, I was packing my hospital bag. This time two years ago, I called my mom to tell her the doctor said I was going to go into labor in 24-48 hours (which wasn’t true) and she was rushing down here. This time two years ago, my mother in law was trying to figure out if she could change to an earlier flight so she wouldn’t miss Sayle’s arrival.”
As of yesterday, when Wheel of Fortune came on, I was remembering how my water broke as I was reaching for the phone when my best friend Melody called me. Then, I recounted hour by hour what I was doing until 7:41 pm on the 25th, when Sayle finally made his grand entrance and I officially became a mom.
Then I will cry my eyes out like I’m crying right now as I type this, because I’m an emotional sap who wants time to slow down, maybe even stop, as I feel like Sayle was a newborn just yesterday. It’s like one day, he was sleeping in the bassinette at the foot of our bed, mesmerized by lights and ceiling fans, constantly attached to me and the next day he was running and climbing everywhere, saying no to everything, and playing with trucks.
I thought the four years I spent in college having the time of my life flew by, but it’s nothing compared to how fast the first two years of Sayle’s life have escaped me.
I’ve cherished every single second of the past two years, loved every single phase he went through, so it’s not like I feel like I’ve missed something. I just feel like it’s all happening too fast. I’ve been warned by other moms that this would happen; before I know it, he will be in middle school and I won’t know how that happened either.
I am absolutely having a pity party, a complete woe is me moment. I’m excited that he’s growing up well, I’m excited to see what the future holds for Sayle and what he’s going to do with his life, my mommy heart just hurts.
I started crying about this to my husband the other night. I came upstairs bawling my eyes out and he was so concerned that he stopped his Call of Duty Black Ops game (if your husband plays it then you know how much of a big deal it is to get them to stop and if your husband doesn’t play it-just know it’s a big deal). When I told him what was wrong he laughed at me. Not in my face laughing, but was definitely amused by my pity party. Dads. They just don’t get it.
So moms, how do you get through this? I’m all open for suggestions. Please tell me this gets easier!!!
Happy Birthday Sayle!
Dear Sayle,
Congrats on the big 2! Please act accordingly and smear the cake in your cute face, etc. (: Wish I could be there…
Love,
Isaac
Saioa’s birthday is also March 25!!! That’s crazy! On her birthday I too found myself reliving the day she was born, most of my sentences starting with “I can’t believe a year ago….” It is sad that they grow so fast and with two kids time really accelerates!
Thanks for all the birthday wishes for Sayle!!!
Mamta, I think March 25th is a GREAT time to have a baby! When I do it again, I’m hopeful to deliver the baby around that time of year! No flu running around, weather warming up—I just love it!! As for Sayle and Saioa, I’m sure not sure if you’ve thought this far in advance, but a lot of colleges are on spring break during that time. There is a chance Sayle and Saioa will be turning 21 during spring break. UGH! I figured I would share that off topic mommy woe with you. :/