Miracles
“Since you are only 4 months along, abortion is still an option.” With the words of the fetal specialist echoing in my brain, I reached for my husband and cried my heart out.
We had just been informed that our first child, a tiny boy we had named Isaac, had swelling in his brain and it was steadily getting worse. The prognosis “ventriculomegaly” was such a long and ugly word but I couldn’t help repeating it over and over. Apparently it could cause bleeding, brain damage, seizures and a whole list of other symptoms that were too terrifying to even comprehend yet.
As a first-time mother, I was in complete shock. What happened? I had done everything by the book — cut out the caffeine and the occasional glass of wine, slept on my left side, ate super healthy and even put my love affair with chocolate on hold, just in case. I also found a new home for our cat due to paranoia about toxoplasmosis. But that was my first thought; what had I done wrong? Did I make a mistake and unintentionally harm my unborn baby? I couldn’t stop blaming myself.
That night my husband and I prayed and contacted friends and family to ask for their prayers as well. As Christians, we did not believe in abortion, and I don’t think I could have considered it anyway. He was my child and no matter what happened, I had to trust God.
After countless ultrasounds, tests, and even an MRI, it was advised that we travel to Chapel Hill to induce a couple days early so Isaac could immediately go into surgery. I tried not think about anything except a quick and healthy delivery, and seeing Isaac for the first time in person.
After two and a half days of labor ending with an emergency c-section, I was handed a perfectly healthy little baby with absolutely nothing wrong with his brain at all. There was no evidence that there had ever even been a problem, and the doctors were stunned yet amazed.
I want to share my story to give hope to those in similar situations…those who feel lost and alone…those who feel guilty and scared. I pray for all of your hearts and urge you to put your trust and faith in God. I truly believe He healed my son and thank Him every day for my miracle.
I can’t even imagine terminating the birth. Holy moly!!! How awesome that he turned out perfectly. What a blessing!
Ah Sarah-
I am so glad you wrote this.
I think people take for granted so much when it comes to having babies. The fact that a woman gets pregnant, has a healthy pregnancy, and a healthy baby in the end is an absoulte miracle.
I believe that Isaac is here for a very special purpose and was given to you because you would make the decision you did.
He is such a little angel!
Well put Brooke, I agree with you 100%
Yes, Jessica, I personally do not believe in abortion so we wouldn’t have terminated the pregnancy regardless of what the doctors told us. He is a blessing, and a daily reminder (:
Good point Brooke…it’s easy to take a healthy pregancy and birth for granted, but in reality there are very few “perfect” pregnancies and births. 9 out of 10 babies have jaundice these days, for example.
I loved the first article until I read this one. I am crying as I write this comment, what a moving testimony. These ladies are right, God gave you Isaac because he knew you would do the right thing and you have! Keep telling your story there are people out there that are searching for an answer and you know what to tell them. Just as I told my little girl everyday of her life that she was a blessing from God you tell Isaac that he is a blessing from God! Isaac will do great things in his life.
Thanks Kelly and Laura, I was worried at first about posting this as I did not want to offend anyone who has different beliefs or sound too preachy. Glad you enjoyed!
Happy 1st Birthday Isaac! You are a perfect little miracle!
Happy Birthday little miracle! We are so very blessed to have you in our life. God is an awesome God!
Thanks for the birthday wishes, Ann and Laura! I can’t believe it’s been a year! Thank God for that little guy; I pray over him every single night and thank him for this miracle of mine.
[...] to raise my son to share my own beliefs and have the basic understanding that there is a God and He did heal my baby’s brain. I don’t think Isaac is too young to get that, and I can teach him the details as he gets [...]